new chapter of life

couple of weeks ago , i am officially recorded as one of student in specialist program.
New life, New friends, insyaallah new experiences.
so here we are..

With 15 others , we are trying to be a specialist . our group consist of various different ages and tribes. but hopefully it wont put any difficulties for all of us.
from the front row, left to the right .
first one is our chief drg syafri, next after him is drg ria , the green lady out is drg intan and actually there is one more from militery corps named drg surya , and we are nobate them as a birocrate row , LOLS :P
next after the birocrates, the man with sunglasses is drg ricky , behind him from the right the two tones girl out there name drg ellen, and after that drg anna , up next drg emma, drg sherlie, drg niar, drg ayu, drg eka, and in the last row .. start from me and thn drg andien, drg irene, and last but not least is drg maria.

well actually 16 is a big number for specialist programs , remembering the dental chair avaibility , but there is no fun life without obstacle to be beated ha ha ...
so far each of our member well adapt.. hopefully it will be last long :)

:)

Papa dan kamu,

kekuatan terbesar yang aku punya disaat terlemahku. dan TUHAN mengambil kalian dariku karna aku terlalu mencintai kalian melebihi batas keharusanku. bagaimana cara agar aku bisa meyakinkan ALLAH bahwa aku membutuhkan kalian berdua. seems like what i THINK i need just taken from me that soon.

Papa selalu tau aku gak akan pernah berhenti menyayangi dia.

dan semoga kamu juga selalu tau .. bahwa kamu sangat berarti untuk aku :)

silently

aku tertunduk lesu. setiap kali kau pergi tanpa kata dan berita.

aku tau semua tak lagi sama. aku sungguh kehilanganmu.

its is like a rhytme. morning to night busy . night to morning u gone.

without anywords except i call u and it not always answeared.

i`ve been there before in you "BUSY" day. i remember how you just "GONE" in a day

but after that the next day is different . i still can feel that it is really because u are busy.

but these nowadays, i believe that you are really that busy. but its hard to believe that u really have no time to say a simple hallo to me. u were just GONE like that. without anywords.

aku menunggu disetiap malamku. berharap kamu meluangkan sedikit waktumu untuk menyapaku. menceritakan padatnya pekerjaanmu seperti yang biasa kamu lakukan.

but now i lost that part too. nothing that i can do cause u give me no respone for all complaint.

a part of me missing you..

a part of me know that u are about to leave..

a part of me still cant believe..

i thought u were different...

there all the twinkle stars in the sky..

they hear me crying and praying in the night.

yes ... you are always there...

but u left silently...

CERDAS

i have a very super duper great father.. begitu sederhana dan apa adanya.. yang dia munculkan dari segala sikapnya dan cara pikirnya adalah kebaikan dan kesederhanaan. he`s very down to earth. papaku orang yang cerdas.. berwawasan luas dan sangat terbuka dengan hal yang baru, dia tidak begitu banyak bicara , kepadakupun papa tidak suka memarahiku tanpa alasan. Dia membiarkan aku tumbuh dewasa dengan cara yang mandiri. mengajarkan segala sesuatu yang bagiku tidak mudah ku pelajari. karna aku begitu jauh dari beliau. aku ini seorang anak yang manja dan amat di manjakan mamaku.sebenarnya papa juga dulu suka memanjakan aku.. tapi seiring berjalannya waktu he really knew the right time to stop my whiney action.

baju sederhana , dandanan sederhana, semua sederhana. harapan yang tidak pernah muluk, dan tidak pernah iri kepada yang memiliki "lebih" dari dia meskipun sesungguhnya dia sanggup memiliki yang sama. senjata dia untuk hidup adalah kesabaran, bebas dari rasa dendam, dan kecerdasan.

makaaaa... kalau ditanya kira-kira apa yang menjadi kriteria pria impianku..

jawabanya "cerdas" bagiku pria cerdas selalu menarik..

mama papa ku selalu mengajarkan padaku untuk memandang seseorang dari kemampuan individualnya bukan dari apa yang dia bawa dari orang tua nya dan apa jenis pekerjaannya.

kaya miskin , tua muda , jauh dekat, bukan sesuatu harga mati bagiku.

orang yang tepat..

bukan orang yang aku inginkan dan tidak selalu aku butuhkan tapi tepat untukku.

mondaytears

Rasanya memang selalu sama. yang berbeda hanya cara aku menghadapinya. i lost my chance in the time i decide to leave even it was the most stupid thing i`ve ever do in my life. but let just say it might already arranged to happened . maybe GOD teach me how to forget and how to down my ego. its up and down but im not giving up. trying trying and trying. i wish GOD giving you better person exactly like what you need while im trying to let this go.

logically , there is no turning back. i know and i kept telling my self that you are already happy. u might already married this time.

but i swear to GOD, i miss u and i shed my monday tears.