try

trying not to respond anger and any negativity.
negative to revange.
will be hard to do.

:)

i might should live this life alone.
no connection with everyone.
until the time is right.

ENJEL

Dear my ENJEL..
you are one of story between me and him..
you are the only friend that he knew as my bestfriend...
you are my walking diary..
who really knew exactly what happen between me and him..

i always love talking about him with you..
but somehow..
you make me afraid ...

pissed off

Baru malem minggu kemaren aku mengalami bad night. niatnya mau pijit di GRIYA SEHAT malah mendapatkan perlakuan tidak menyenangkan , begini ceritanya...
setelah beraktivitas cukup padat seharian , aku dan beberapa teman malaysiaku memutuskan untuk memilih GRIYA SEHAT sebagai tempat bermalam mingguan.
receptionist menyambut dengan ramahnya mempersilahkan kami satu-persatu masuk ke bilik-bilik. aku sudah langsung bersiap-siap. sampai akhirnya seorang terapis yang lately i know her name is TANTI nyamperin bilik saya
"permisi" bilik dibuka dan tiba-tiba " WOWWWW" sambil memandangi tubuhku.. whattt the fuckkk.... terus dia meletakkan cream dan handuk di meja kemudian meminta aku menunggu sebentar ... first sih masih sabar lah sampe akhirnya aku mendengar dia ketawa-ketawa sama temennyaa.. what the fuckk... seperti sedang mendescribe keadaanku ASUUU!!!!
lalu dia masuk lagi ke bilik ku dan memintaku mengganti bajuku, tanpa basa-basi aku bilang " eh mbak, kalo mbak ga mau pijit saya , saya gpp lho.. ga jadi juga gpp!" lalu aku berlalu. huh!!!
seumur-umur aku ga pernah diperlakukan seperti ini, bahkan ditempat pijit lainnya .. dan mulai saat itu blacklist GRIYA SEHAT maguwo... !!! terapisnya ga punya manner ga bisa behave.. faaaakkk!!!

and im so enough dengan kejadian " direndahkan" yang ternyata siang ini terjadi lagi disuatu tempat makan di sekitar sagan. teman-temanku sudah duduk di salah satu meja yang kosong dan aku dan ain lah yang bertugas untuk memesan karna pesananku agak ribet jadi aku harus memastikan pesananku tidak keliru. tiba-tiba aku melihat ada cowo yang melempar pandangan ke aku karna di kasih tau cewe di sebelahnya,, and i know what that mean!!! langsung aku triakkkk " KENAPA MASSSS????" lalu mreka berdua menunduk. aku bener-bener ga trima. ngapain sih musti ngerendahin gwa... emang lo siapaa... makanya orang kayak gitu musti dikasih pelajaran. aku sengaja ngasi tau anak2 yang ikut makan bareng saat itu dan menceritakan kejadian yang baru saja ku alami.. sambil menunjukkk wanita itu.. dia kerasaa dan nunduk kata temen2ku... biarin aja dehhh... aku sengajaaaa pointing at her nose pada saat dia liat aku.
i dont care what she think,,, butttt you really have to know what i think,,,,
that you are who suppous to pointed as a CRAP!!!!
menyedihkan sekali,,, berjilbab tapiii merendahkan orang.... what the fuckk!!!!

story

destiny ...
it is when i met each of person in my life..
weather they were left or stay...
but it is already written as a destiny,,
"my d-e-s-t-i-n-y"


faith ....
it is what inside my heart...
it is what i believe...
it is what make me still have willing to live a life..
it is what encourage me to told them who i love about who is the real me..
it is what you`ve said in the first time we knew eachother, along the time we spent together, and in the time you left me... you said you still have faith on me... it was YOURS.. Your faith..
and mine is safety saved in my heartbox. stay there... and that was MINE,, My F-a-i-t-h

future..
it is everybody`s next chapter of life..
it is everybody`s hope..
it is everybody`s mistery..
but future are coming like it or not...
future are there...
set by GOD ...
and there are lotsa dream and hope for a path called future..
my dream and hope for my future...

“ Dear Allah and all of fairy, let them who stayed beside me, who walk together with me become my true friend .. and may them who left become my bittersweet memories cause there always be "STORY" in their presence ”